First off, isn't this picture so painterly? I love a good oil painting of clouds. It seems like Jamie, the photographer, captured that same feeling. I hope you all like it as well. Check out her blog here. I love her peaceful images and interesting take on the world she sees.
Here is where the self centered post begins. It is the busy season. I feel like I will be diving into an ocean of work... "will be" being the operative word. I need to be drowning in silk and tulle and late late nights. I haven't. I got sick. Not just a day of down time but a weeks worth of down time. Dang. I want to be so overwhelmed that I just get a ton done. Not in the cards.
Not only do I feel yucky but the weather is bad. Yes, snow and slush and overcast skies. Come on, it is April! So I have time to stress that I am not getting anything done yet I don't have the physical capabilities to do anything. Let's add on the feeling of being pretty out there as far as geography. When I step out of the house for fresh air, my main worry is cougar or some other predator getting me. I don't need to worry about the neighbors seeing me in my jammies. Maybe I would rather worry about the neighbors than a wild animal. I love where I live, but when I am sick, it seems way too far away from the grocery store or the nearest neighbor.
Anyway, we went down to town for church today. One of my sweet friends gave me a hug right at my breaking point. So I cried. I couldn't help it. I swear, though, that crying really can help. I imagine it must release some great chemical that makes everything okay. Of course I was surrounded by great women that I call my friends. So we had a short counseling session and discussed how it will be okay.... and it will be. In a minute.
In a way, it is better already. I am sitting in the sun, peacefully, without the weight of wedding gowns on me.... Wait, that part about me sitting here without the weight. Well, that isn't really true. The weight I feel is just less than before. More of a handle-able level.
What I really really want is to make each one of these upcoming dresses so cool. I want to love each and every one of them. Even their imperfections that hopefully only I can see. Could I achieve this? I will have to let you know.
Thanks for listening. I promise to quit posting depressing posts. M