This weekend I made flowers. Lots and lots of flowers. I hated them, not all of them individually, but all of them as a whole. I hated everything I was trying to do for this dress. This is normal. I go through this with all of my dresses at some point. BUT, the dresses I really really want to be over the top crazy cool, well, I go through a lot more of the hate before the pay off happens.
So this dress is for Abi, someone I have known for a long time. She has got to be the happiest person I know. She also is willing to go big with this thing. If I have a willing bride, I try to take advantage of the situation.
So the pressure is on.
I love the pressure.... today.
I hated the pressure yesterday.
So I spend two full days of obsessing over the dress before I finally tore myself away from it. We went "down to town" which sounds so country. While coming home it dawned on me which direction to take. I worked on it this morning and, wala, I surprised myself. It has to do with the way the lace looks on these ruffley things I made. It has a sweet but modern look to it. The flowers I hated for the last few days have now taken a back seat to this new thing. Now I don't hate the flowers. The are not the big design feature. They are the whip cream that could be omitted if desired.
While I was frustrated and moody, I called my friend Michele. She is a creative genius and knows what I was feeling. I think I have talked her down before as well. She simply stated, "It is the mother of creativity" or some sort of thing. So of course I took that as literally the pain you go though becoming a mother. Stay with me on this one. You have to go through a lot of pain and you have to learn to be patient when becoming a mother. I guess the same goes for creating something else. Patience is key with dress making AND most every dress I create has a pain stage.
I wonder if anyone else has these experiences while creating. I worry if I just don't get it. Maybe I need to learn to ride with the waves instead of swimming up stream. I think, in the end, swimming up stream brings the best results for me. I wonder if some people out there create while floating down a moderate river, with the sun on their backs, and sipping a tropical drink.
This would be a great time to comment. I am curious to know what you all think.